Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in aramil_nailo's LiveJournal:

Sunday, February 15th, 2004
11:39 am	So today is sunday, the day after valentine's day. Today Her Radiance has to go back to VA, sadly. However on tuesday I'll be following down because of president's day weekend (damn day weekends.) Anyway I'll have to wait two days, that's mildly annoying, but it must be done. I have things to do monday and tuesday. But I don't want her to go :\ I been thinking about how we're going to eat and I'm not sure. I don't have much cash and I can't rack up my credit card because I need gas money... We'll see how this works out. (Comment on this)
Monday, February 9th, 2004
9:34 pm	It's nice to have one thing that makes you feel better when everything else makes you feel like crap. Fortunately I have such a thing, and my thing is a person. I don't think I can emphasize the gratitude I feel for her unending support and comfort. I wish I had a larger vocabulary to more vividly describe just how excellent she can make me feel. I suppose this journal entry is just to say thank you. Once again for everything you do for me, for putting up with me, for cooking for me, for giving me your love. I know you have certain anxieties about relationships and I want you to know I'm here for you just as you're here for me. I love you in a way that I've never felt around anyone else. You are unique and beautiful, not just your body, but you as a person. Your wonderful in every way I can imagine, and if I could do anything right in this life, it would be to make you feel the way you can make me, pure bliss. I long for Friday when once again I can see you, and I know you must be getting tired of how much I say it but I really can not wait. I just wish I had more time. I used to say that when I turned 50 I just wanted someone to shoot me so I wouldn't become meak and eventually disabled, though last night we were kidding around and I said something similar and I thought about it. When I get that old I'll still want to be with you. I've never felt like that before. I wouldn't want to end it because I'd waist so much time that I could spend with you. And my time with you is so precious... I didn't intend for this entry to end up like this but I guess things don't always turn out as you expect. I have to say I'm glad for that too, at one point I was sure that you'd never speak to me again but you never cease to suprise me with how amazing you are. I really do love you, and I wish I could show you directly how I feel, because the words just are not potent enough. And for the first time in a very long time, you've made me a part of something very special. Thank you (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 7th, 2004
12:22 am	Ok, so tonight at Chas' house it was decided that I am going to, once again, try to run a campaign. It has not been decided however how we're going to do this, it's hard to get everyone together, because of location and how many players I'm looking for so I've been really brainstorming. I am beggining to think about online P&P D&D now I know that this sounds odd but the only real problem with it is 1) cheating, I know that people in my campaigns are honest people but it's so hard to let yourself fall unconscious when you've worked so hard on that hill giant and 2) Rob can't touch anything with a power switch for the next two decades... However I really want Leah to be able to play. Perhaps if I get Rob over here on a time that would correspond with everyone else... I'm not sure, I still have to come up with a campaign idea and find out who are my players and lots of other stuff, but the wheels are turning... (Comment on this)
Friday, February 6th, 2004
6:15 pm	So every time the most beautiful girl in the world, my girlfriend, Her Radiance gets frustrated or upset I feel at fault. I know that it's not always directly my fault, though I suspect many times it is. But I can't help but feelt that I haven't done enough to make things better so that she doesn't have to feel this way. So I end up feeling insufficient and somewhat upset myself. I just want to make her feel better and when I try I feel as though I am only helping to worsen the situation. So I blunder on trying even harder and make things worse, and I just love her so much that I don't know what to do. I just wish I could make her happy. :\ (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 5th, 2004
7:46 pm	Ok, so yesterday I spent sixty of my brother's dollars to have a mountain kick my ass. This wouldn't disturb me so much save the complete waste of sixty dollars. So my knees and ass hurt (not my asshole you bastards.) Anyway I am really starting to stress over my lack of options for valentine's day. I really want to make it special because I really love my one and only, but I just don't really have funding. I'm beginging to think about mugging old people on the street. They always have money don't they? I mean who's grandparents can't whip out hundreds? Hmmm... I think I may have to travel out of state for this. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, January 31st, 2004
12:59 am	So I'm here all by myself, I left my best friend's house because I can't stop thinking about my beautiful, loving, incredible, damn-good-cooking, humorous, cute girlfriend. I was hoping maybe I'd catch her before she went off to sleep, but she put up an away message that worries me, "hold on, i think i have to go throw up all my internal organs" I'm not sure if this is literal or not but in either case I'm still worried, I suppose I could call, but what if she's not kidding and she's sleeping I don't want to interupt. But the really overbearing WORRYING FREAK inside me is urging me, emploring me, demanding me to call... I hope everything is all right. I do love her so, I think possibly waking her up is worth the risk of finding out whether she's ok or not... (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 29th, 2004
7:02 pm	Ok, so days and days have passed since my last entry. "Why?" you may ask. The answer lies in my previous posts. I was indisposed soaking up the luxury that is my Her Radiance. She spent a good five days with me, and man did I love every last one. So to recap, we did stuff, we did stuff rated R, we did stuff with each other, and it was oh, so great. So I devoured all the food she made today, the last of it, and now I find myself feeling melencholy. The last of what she gave me is gone, and soon I'll have to watch it run down the toilet. Oh well, until next time! RAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, January 23rd, 2004
9:35 am	Please forgive my previous psychotic rampage, I didn't mean to beat that old lady for so long with that cane. Oh well, Have an hour and some to kill, going to catch up on some Political Science reading and talk with Her Radiance until she has class. Mmmmm eight and a half hours \ m /_ (Comment on this)
9:09 am	HO-lee fuck is it Friday, ok, I've made it, I'm almost home. All I have to do is not stab, kill, shoot, runover, maim, destroy, bite, peirce, cut, or bomb for the nine hours... *Breathes heavily* I can make it... I swear no psychotic episodes for me no no. *eye twitch* I'll be fine, class will be great *grinds teeth* FINE... Ok, I'm good now *neck spasm* AHHHHHH IT'S NOT SOOON ENOUGH ARARELREJMLKF:MSDIOFMLZ:WJFDLJFML:CMELKJMSZL:JZLKSGTLKF:M AEIJDIG J:SL JFKLSM"ewitoepjdsigovmcl:awjiosjgFLDKCMSL :TEJIFVM: TEHGVA"IOW#Q UTGPSJVDMC: TJSGHVEJ LT R#U *(PFJX:JFZFJG F L:VMWO:JT (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 22nd, 2004
4:09 pm	[Spell your first name backwards]: nayR [How old?]: 20 [Where do you live?]: teh boro! NJ [4 words that sum you up]: Excitable Friendly Lonely (when she's not around) and Gamer DESCRIBE YOUR: [Wallet]: Black leather [Hairbrush]: Green [Jewelry worn daily]: Only my earrings [Pillow cover]: My head [Coffee cup]: Custom made large mug [Shoes]: Black leather boots [Handbag]: Oh man am I not gay [Favorite shirt]: Hanes muscle shirt mutha fuckas [Perfume]: Ryan official scent [CD in stereo right now]: If by stereo you mean discman then I have no clue and I'm too lazy to look [Piercings]: Si! [What you are wearing now]: Jeans, JTHM T, Black leather boots, two pairs of socks (no nothing was left out) [Hair]: Quite long, light brown [Makeup]: Refer to the the handbag question [In my mouth]: Floppy tongue [In my head]: ... [Wishing]: It were friday (I'm in love) [After this]: Waiting for my Girlfriend [Talking to]: Myself (GF is away :() [Eating]: Myself [Fetishes]: My GF (Oh man is that enough) [Some of your favorite movies]: Bram Stokers, The Crow, LotR (series) ect. [The last thing you ate?]: Multigrain cherios [Do you like candles]: Damn right [Do you like incense]: Yep [Do you believe in love]: Goddamn right I do [Do you believe in soul mates]: I don't believe in souls... but I do believe there's only one person for me [Do you believe in love at first sight]: That's lust there fella [Do you believe in forgiveness]: Mmmmhmmm [If you could have any animal for a pet]: A wallaby, look at that cute mofo hop around [What are 3 states you wouldn't mind relocating to?]: Uh... [What's something you wish you could understand better?]: The nature of women [Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?]: My girlfriend and my brother and on the rare occasion my dad [What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow?]: OH MY GOD MY GIRLFRIEND COMES HOME TOMORROW In the last 24 hours, have you: 01. Cried: No 02. Bought something: No 03. Gotten sick: No 04. Sang: Everyday mofo fo' sho' 05. Eaten: Yep 06. Been kissed: God I wish 07. Felt stupid: Constantly 08. Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: No, I sure did that 09. Met someone new: Nevar! 10. Moved on: From? 11. Talk to an ex: Fuck no 12. Missed an ex: I have the only ex I've ever missed 13. Talked to someone you have a crush on: Does my girlfriend count? 14. Had a serious talk: Mmmhmmm 15. Missed someone: Damn right 16. Hugged someone: *cries* 17. Fought with your parents: I think every conversation with my mom counts as a fight Social Life: 01. Best girl friend: Leah, duh 02. Best guy friend: Chas 03. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: See Best Girl friend 04. If no, current dating partner: 05. Hobbies: Video games, movie connoisseuring, considering when next I can make trips of 273 miles. 06. Pager: Hell no 07. Are you center of attention or the wallflower: Both and neither. 08. What type automobile do you drive: 88 Mazda MX6 mofakas 09. What type automobile do you wish you drove: Honda S2000 or Acura NSX 10. Would you rather be with friends or on a date: "Date" is very inspecific, I consider my girlfriend the best of friends, so either way I'm with her, and so enjoying myself 11. Where is the best hangout: My house, it's quiet and cold, good for making my girlfriend cuddle with me 12. Do you have a job: Not yet but looking 13. Do you attend church: Nope 14. Do you like being around people: Depends on the people Personal: 01. Who is your role model: John Gabriel 02. What are some of your pet peeves: None of especial note that I can think of 03. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: No 04. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: Oh man have I 05. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: Yes, the kind that clearly stand on the side of awesome 07. Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: No, under most cercumstances I try to see things from as many points of veiw as possible and look for reasons why I deserved my pains 08. Rather be dumper or dumped: That's a rough one, I'd have to say the dumpee because I've been the dumper on several occasions and I do so hate hurting people 09. Rather have a relationship or a "hookup": This question is really stupid, I mean, who the hell wants to "hookup" when they could have an interesting and fulfilling relationship with someone if only they would look passed carnal pleasure to see the real value someone can truly have, christ... morons 11. Ever liked your best guy/girl friend: Nope 12. Do you want to get married: Fucking right 13. Do you want kids: No, the thought of me spawning something that might end up like me would be frightening, and I'm not sure I'd make the best father anyway, I'd be the dad that's like, "Awww son of course I'll buy you that car when you're old enough. Honey look how cute he is." then get a horrible evil look from the boy's mother and then get beaten in private 14. Do you believe in psychics: The closest I'll believe in "psychic" would be the foresight that comes from wisdom gained through experience 15. Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time: Not certain but the possibility is there 16. What is your favorite part of your physical appearance: From what I've been told I look decent enough and I don't believe my girlfriend would lie to me but no particular favorite 17. What is your favorite part of your emotional being: What the hell? 18. Are you happy with you: With some things 19. Are you happy with your life: Some aspects, my social life has been excellent but I really have to figure out what I'm doing with my career [in the morning i am]: Reaching around for Leah [all i need is/are]: Love [if i had one wish it would be]: To reveal this would be to unravel the world as we know it... [love is]: Enveloping [if i could see one person right now]: Leah [im afraid of]: Losing the one I care most about, or dying without being able to make sure she KNOWS how I feel about her [i dream about]: I could tell you but you'd have to be admitted afterwards [coke or pepsi]: REDBULL MOTHER FUCKERS [flowers or candy]: Kisses and hugs [scruff or clean shaven]: Ooo, definintely shaven [tall or short]: Short [what do u notice first?]: Facial structure [easier to talk to: boys or girls?]: Depends on the person [sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to i.m u?]: Sometimes... when I know she's going to be online... [save e-mails]: What's...e....mail? [wish u were a member of the opposite sex]: FUCK.....NO [cried because of someone saying something to you]: Yes [been rejected]: Yes [rejected someone]: Yes [used someone]: No [done something you regret]: Letting myself fall into what was easy rather than what I knew would be more fulfilling despite more work envolved [color your hair]: Never [ever get off the computer]: What do you mean? [habla espanol]: Piqeno [smoke]: No [obsessive]: Sometimes [could you live without the computer?]: I did it for years [how many people are on your buddylist?]: 8 [whats your favorite food?]: Something I can eat off my girlfriend? [whats your favorite fruit?]: Possibly Granny Smith Apples [drink alcohol?]: Now and again [what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?]: The stuff on the inside [trust others way too easily?]: No (Comment on this)
9:42 am	Every little thing she does is magic. The Police \ m /_ (Comment on this)
9:31 am	I have a hard enough time finding clothes as it is but ruining stuff that I have makes me sad. My damn redsand pants have a grease spot on them so they look wet and this wouldn't bother me that much if it weren't for the fact that the spot is an inch from my penis. RAWR I suck :( In other news it's almost Friday and god damn will it never come soon enough. Tomorrow is the big day... I dreampt about Her Radiance last night. God damn was it glorious not that I remember anything about it but her waking me up in her dorm, which I think actually woke me up. The problem? I didn't get to see her beautiful smiling face hovering above me when I opened my eyes. *sigh* I need some breakfast... (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 21st, 2004
8:04 pm	Ah the world of make believe, I'm going to go heat up some left over macaroni and cheese and pretend that it's chinese food, I mean, both have noodles... it could work. Man do I wish I had real food still, oh well. I'll get some good food this weekend, one more thing to look forward to. (Comment on this)
6:32 pm	So today went off pretty much without a hitch I ruled BG:DA and Her Radiance ruled my face off as usual. The water guy didn't come like he was supposed to but *shrug* you can't win them all right? So basically I need it to be Friday as soon as possible. My love will come home for the weekend and I'll be overjoyed by her presence. I hope no one else was expecting me to give them my attention this weekend cause they're not getting shit. If Chas comes over I may have to come to the door naked so he gets the point. In anycase this weekend will be nonstop awesome and I'm very excited... now to get through tomorrow without a psycotic episode... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
8:57 am	OMGADS!?!? Why does he update so often?!?! I'm bored that's why. But lo! What have we here a bowl of multigrain cherios! Nutricious and deliscious. Looking forward to this weekend, A LOT. I think today should be dedicated to kicking more ass and paying uber attention to my incredible girl friend. So first on the list after this bowl of cereal, while my girlfriend is getting breakfast is some Baldur's Gate: Dark Alliance. After that (when she gets back and haults everything I'm doing with her non-stop awesome) I'm going to have a chat with her until she goes off to class, then, I'll create some fiction. The schedule after that will be more BG:DA then, more AIM with Her Radiance (that's an official title.) Man will some ruling be done today. But now, to check my favorite online comic. \ m /_ (2 Comments |Comment on this)
8:52 am	Operation Make her eat breakfast was a complete success. Now she'll be strong and alert all the way to lunch time, and hopefully won't have hunger pain. Speaking of which I think I'll break the fast as well. Now fellas, what's cooler than bein' cool? (Comment on this)
8:49 am	I think that everyone should eat three square meals a day, don't you agree? (resounding yes) Great now that that's settled on to other new, the world in crisis. But first to convince my better half to eat some BREAKFAST!! Oh well. (Comment on this)
12:14 am	So this journal was created to read something that someone said bad about my girlfriend, that person is lucky that this is the intarweb, and not actual real life forums, or I'd have more than words for this person. However now that I've made the journal I might as well keep one. So, for any relief this may give me in the future I must give all gratitude to it's rightful muse, my girlfriend whom I love very dearly. Thank you Leah, for all the ways that you make me better, I'll try to update this as often as I think about it. Hopefully this will be more successful than any of my other online indevors, save PA. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
12:06 am	Holy carpe! Ub0rz GF huked up teh ic0n rar! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 20th, 2004
11:55 pm	I r soo en lof wit teh reeah (1 Comment |Comment on this)